You want to know my problem world? I get sad too easily. It's mainly caused by fatigue. The sadder I get the more tired I get, and the more tired I get the sadder I get. Endless cycle. Right now I'm listening to the Singles' Ward soundtrack, trying to find a way to be happy, but it mainly makes me feel guilty for not being as good about praying and scripture reading as I should be, and guilt is another big cause of the sadness. Tumblr is another happy thought, but I'm too tired from work to focus on it too much. Nothing looks interesting tonight. So I'm posting this diary entry of a blog post instead. No more metaphors and hidden meanings, I'm just telling you how it is flat out. I get sad sometimes for no apparent reason. But it will pass. It always passes eventually.
Thanks for listening. <3

Change.

One of the perks/ downfalls of being me is my tendency to change. When life gets stale or hard I change. I sit down with a pen and paper and make list after list of who I want to be, the things I want to say, the places I want to go, the clothes I want to wear; in essence, the life I want to live. To change is a form of running away, of hiding behind the curtain of a new state of mind and new way of life. It gives me something to work towards,but also gives me reason and opportunity to pretend the problems of my past life didn't exist. I am not the Louise of yesterday; those were her problems, not mine.

It also interests me the things that remain constant. No matter how much or how often I change, I am still a princess. I am still Louise. I am still Mormon, I still love cupcakes and teacups and Narnia and lifestyle books and how to articles. I am still a procrastinator and a day dreamer. I may change, but I am still me.

p.s. This lovely image came from the Lost Princess.

Prom-time Restaurant Ettiquette

For my own sanity it must be said. Dear Prom-goers: when going out to dinner before Prom, please remember:

1. Stay in your seat. You don't need to get up to go to the bathroom every 20 minutes! We all know you're just parading around trying to look pretty, do us all a favor and stay in your seat and out of your server's way.

2. You cannot get everything you want! Just because it's Prom does not mean you're entitled to complain about anything and everything that comes to mind. Servers are not synonymous with servant!

3. Remember what you order! The people who deliver your food to you are not necessarily your servers and cannot be expected to know what the heck they're taking you. You told your server you didn't want egg on your salad, not me. I'm just told where to take the salad, not what's on it. I'm also not psychic. Sadly.

4. Know how to tip! 15% People! Fifteen percent of the entire bill is considered a proper tip! We're doing our best to serve you, please try to be understanding. Don't withhold a tip because we got overwhelmed for a moment and forgot to bring your ketchup out before your entrees. Tips are not fun money for us, they're our paychecks. We have bills too!

5. Don't send anyone back and forth to your table requesting things one at a time. On the same note, don't overwhelm your server with 10 different requests all at the same time. Patience is a virtue, your servers most likely have other tables to take care of, and we're not miracle workers; we can only remember so much at one time. Also, try to avoid asking for things from people who are not your server. Your server (you only get one!) will introduce himself before the meal. He, and only he, is responsible for you. Not the next table's server, not the food-runners, not the managers.

6. Don't make out with your date at the table! Eww! We don't want to see that! And don't announce to the entire restaurant that you're going to the limo to have sex! We, all other guests included, definitely do NOT WANT TO KNOW! Your friends may cheer you on, but secretly they feel the same. TOO MUCH INFORMATION!!!! WRONG! DISGUSTING!